It's symbolic of his struggle against reality.

I wonder how many people I have touched and who would be affected if I just disappeared tonight.
I dont think I can keep this up any longer. I cant keep pretending everything’s alright. Putting on this fake smile and going out as if nothing’s wrong. I’m at my wits end and reaching out to others just doesnt help anymore. I need a permanent solution to all this shit..

“For some folks death is a release, and for others death is an abomination, a terrible thing. But in the end, I’m there for all of them.”

(Source: girlgonesuper, via crankyoldbastard)

like autumn leaves
his sense fell from him
an empty glass of himself
shattered somewhere within
his thoughts like a hundred moths
trapped in a lampshade
somewhere within
their wings banging and burning
on through endless nights
forever awake, he lies shaking and starving
praying for someone to turn off the light

Born of a Broken Man - Rage Against The Machine

(Source: antisymmetry)

"Only pain or love or danger makes you real again."

- Jack Kerouac (via rupert-the-bear)

(via crankyoldbastard)

I continue to abuse myself without motive or reason. Have a found the substance that I truly abuse? I’ve finally found my sole addiction and I didnt realize it. I cant even justify this self harm anymore…